BIG DICK ENERGY
(vulgar, slang - the attractive aura exuded by a person who has understated but unshakeable self confidence*)
In my diploma project BIG DICK ENERGY I deal with a personal feeling, impulse or instinct. It is about an attitude that is socially connoted as male. Offense, toughness, and aggression, in the best case as a playful attitude to get through life unharmed. In recent years, this attitude has become the focus of discussion about toxic masculinity, which in retrospect also led me to question my own behavior in this regard.
In admiration of this supposed strength, I use since I can think, an - at least in poses - aggressive behavior, as a protective mechanism. In my diploma project, I have consciously decided to once again use a term that focuses on the male sexual organ, because with a wink in the direction of BIG DICKS, I stand up for a feminist reattribution and appropriation of the term, while also including important queer positions on it. With BIG DICK ENERGY I want to show, smile, celebrate and break this attitude from a female point of view. A lot will be about self-representations, where I figuratively find myself in objects or people, deal with them and embody such now and then. Works from my archive serve as a basis, which raise questions about stereotypical gender roles, are supplemented by new works on the subject, and in combinations with video loops and objects allow new readings.